To Protect What is Yours IV.

For many years, I thought I had made a jar. One that I’ve spent many years to mold & create. One that was refined through the furnace and was ready to be used, glossed up and all.
Until I recently realized..
I wasn’t the one who made it.
And suddenly, a deep conviction within my soul comes crashing like the waves, destroying in an instant a thought pattern I had built my whole life’s narrative around.

And when the feeling of possessiveness over my own jar begins to tempt me,
a gentle voice reminds me,
”I am the potter, you are the clay.
I am the artist that came up with the design from the very beginning,
Molded each edge, each dip, each piece to put it together
Shaped it with intent, and gazed upon it with butterflies in my stomach
Wondering how beautiful (you) were going to turn out
Even after going through the furnace and hard circumstances
How strong and unbreakable (you) were going to be
Because of them.”

And so,
A jar that yesterday, had felt so fragile and easy to break
Today becomes strong and invincible
And the fear of dropping it no longer dictate its livelihood,
But rather, the fearlessness of its invincibility allows me to truly live

What a blessing that it was not the little hands of a fragile, broken girl doing her best to make an imperfect product,
But that it was the hands of a perfect Maker who knows no error, no creative bounds,
That made Himself a perfect product
That cannot be broken nor tampered with nor replicated by the world
So that at any point in time,
It will be ready to be used,
ready to be displayed,
and ready to be given to those who need it.

So may my jar be of service to the Maker and to those looking to drink from it,
As an altar that hosts and holds the presence of the divine,
Something that can only be done by a perfect vessel
Incapable of cracks and crevices,
No matter how many times it is dropped and broken.
And I will remind myself of this truth over and over again
That it is not my jar, but His
So He can have all of it, even if He doesn’t ask
As that is what a good Maker deserves -
To enjoy His own creation to the fullest of its beauty
Day, after day, after day.